That perfection thing is yelling at me again because I ate two cookies and two bagels. Obviously, my life is over. Everyone knows eating 2,700 calories in one day is against the law.
Beer-drinking Pig & A Woman Named Wanda
Air Hunger is a Thing
Biblitopia - Sex Ed & Wolverine Nipples
Tampax Lied. Your Life Is Over.
I’m 12 Pounds Overweight & Not Famous
Sparkling Results - The Art of Pretending You Don’t Hate Yourself
Sometimes, when I feel like a black cloud of disgust, I trick myself into dressing like an adult instead of hiding in oversized sweatshirts and pants from Walmart by asking: What would someone with an overgrown self-esteem do? This forces me to blow dry my hair, put on mascara, and floss. Surprisingly, when I don’t dress like person experiencing homelessness, I tend to feel a little more “sparkly.”
Enjoy the Freedom of Being Totally Insignificant - My Current Conception of “God”
The Tao Te Ching - as translated by Stephen Mitchell - truly brought me home. It gave me a foundation upon which to heal from past spiritual abuse. When I use the term God today, I am not referring to an anthropomorphic power or personified diety. I am referring to the egoless Life Force that glows from within each of us, but is also beyond all of us.
Rachel & Fundamentalism Made Ugly Babies - The Other Evolution of God
A Gratitude Deficiency - What it's Like Being the Laziest Woman in the World
Oops - That One Time I Accidentally Ruined My Life
Spiritual Vanity - A Guide for Seriously Uncool People
I have this automatic fantasy that tricks me into thinking I can be more pure, more clean, or more "spiritual" if I do or don't do certain things...if my body looks or doesn't look a certain way. In these moments, it never occurs to me that I am seeking self-acceptance, a sense of Ok-ness, an inner-knowing that I'm one with the Universe. I don't know how "personal growth" and "vainly enhancing my image" get mixed up for me.
I am Rachel, Sunrise Mountain Lion.
"Not-measuring-up" is one of my specialties. What I'm not good at is accepting my humanity and life's realities without truck-loads of abusive mental commentary. Because of this, I am practicing not having a perfect body, perfect sobriety, perfect spirituality, perfect image, or painless experience...and liking it.